Internal Struggles

We really never know someone’s internal struggles. It’s not a sickness we can see, or feel any real sympathy for at all. Most people struggling tend to be masters at hiding it or stifling it down so that no one can see it for what it is.

Whether it’s anxiety, depression, panic attacks or what not, they feel those symptoms probably on a daily basis.

I have struggled with anxiety in the past, and to be honest, still have my moments in that place of darkness. Anxiety has a way of making you feel worthless, alone and just flat out DONE in a matter of SECONDS. It operates in the defeat before you even have a THOUGHT to succeed.

I hate every moment of anxiety. It’s not who I am, it’s not my identity.

BUT, it should be talked about. I have a really amazing life. Amazing husband, two healthy kids, a cute house and only a few problems that most experience! Overall, I live a pretty blessed life. BUT, anxiety. It tells me I’m not a great wife, mom or housekeeper on a weekly basis. It has kept me from making friendships, or venturing to new places! It tells me to isolate, because freedom lives where we open up!

Within the last year I have found a ton of freedom.

My first step in freedom was acknowledging it, but not accepting it. We can work through the problem, if we acknowledge it. Second, was my personal relationship with Jesus Christ, not a subversion but an actual you are here with me relationship. I prayed a lot. I walked out forgiveness in myself and still do on a daily basis.

Philippians tells us to be anxious for NOTHING but to give it to Him in prayer!

“6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7

My whole point? You don’t know that friend, sister, daughter, mom, dad, brother, etc who’s struggling today. Their life may look fine. Facebook may paint a picture of goodness. BUT, deep down, they may be struggling. Struggling enough where they wonder if their life is worth living or the next day is worth having. That actually BREAKS me inside.

Friends, your life is worthy because He says it is. You have value because He paid it all for you when He died for YOU! Jesus loves you for every success, failure and in between. It says in Romans that NOTHING can separate you from the love of God. And, it’s oh so true!

Romans 8:31-39

So, if that’s you, if you are struggling with emotions and thoughts that are not YOU, and you find it hard to get through the day to day finding worth in it. Please, reach out to me or a friend, and let them pray for you! I’d love to pray with you and for you! It’s okay to be vulnerable and to need people to love on you just a little more! I’ve been there. I know those dark places but you don’t need to LIVE there, goodness is on the other side.

Until next time,




1 thought on “Internal Struggles”

  1. Beautifully spoken. Thank you for sharing your heart, and your struggles. God bless you, and protect you, for helping others.


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